Reafirmation of Faith Testimony
The most amazing thing happened to me a couple of weeks ago.
I had been praying for a closer relationship with God. I went to the women’s Bible study and the Wednesday night Prayer meetings. I started reading every spiritual book I could find trying to figure out how to get that still closer relationship to God. I read every Max Lucado and Charles Stanley book I came across. I found the book “Radical” by David Platt in my bookcase. I don’t know where it came from. I know I didn’t buy it. I had no idea what it was even about. On the cover it said it was about “taking back your faith from the American dream”. And it was a NY Times bestseller, so…..
I started reading “Radical”. It scared me in the beginning. I asked Pastor Tae Sung about it the next night at our prayer meeting. I wanted to know if it was a good book to read. I told him it made me feel like I had to give away everything I own and go live under a bridge in a third world country in order to go to Heaven and it was scary. I thought I can’t afford to do that, I have a hard enough time keeping up with my cable bill. He and Mina said “absolutely yes”, read the book it’s very good. So I did.
David Platt tells how we have manipulated the gospel into something we feel more comfortable with. When Jesus says to leave everything behind and follow Him, that’s EXACTLY what he means. He will take care of our needs. Jesus has to be number one in our lives.
The American dream to have a bigger house, better car, or more money shows what we can accomplish on our own ability and that’s ok as long as we remember that God gave us those abilities. Without Him we have nothing.
We can’t buy eternal life with God, He wants us to Glorify Him, to make His word known around the world. He wants our hearts. He wants us to love one another and serve them and lead them to Him, so that they can lead still others to Him.
When we say that we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior we should think about that, Jesus doesn’t need our acceptance. We need Him. We need to trust Him for our salvation. Accepting Him isn’t enough. We need to surrender to Him.
So many people in this world have to meet secretly to worship God at the risk of persecution. Many others have never heard the word of God. How blessed we are. Jesus commands us to help them learn about Him any way we can. Through prayer, visiting in person, helping finance other people or organizations to go to them and spread His Glorious word. What better American dream can we have than giving someone the opportunity to know that God loves them.
While I was reading this book the Holy Spirit became real to me for the first time. I knew about the Holy Spirit and believed in the It but I never felt It like I do now. I was so inspired I decided that I have to do the one year radical experiment that the author has outlined at the end of the book.
I will pray for the entire world…that they will know God and be free to worship Him
I will read through the entire Bible…in one year
I will sacrifice my money for a specific purpose…whether I have a lot or a little
I will spend time in another context… out of my comfort zone
I will commit my life to a multiplying community…we need to spread His word.
After committing to this experiment God started putting all the right people and circumstances in my path.
One night as I sat and prayed for the woman I was to watch at the hospital the Holy Spirit was nudging me to go one step further, I thought what should I do? My job description specifically says that I am not to advise or counsel the patients. I am not a trained professional. I am there to make sure they are safe and not harming themselves or anyone else. As my shift was ending that voice said “you better do it now or it will be too late” I immediately got up and went to her and held her hand and simply said, ”God bless you” and she said “Oh thank you, will you pray for me? I said “of course, I already have” and she promised to pray for me too. God uses ordinary people, too.
The Holy Spirit is leading me and working through me. I feel different, even my thinking is different. When I pray I can feel God right there with me. It is very personal and emotional. I pray that if you haven’t had this powerful an experience with God that you will. It has changed my heart. It was like I was hearing His Word for the first time and maybe I was. I couldn’t wait to share my experience at the next prayer meeting. I had to thank the Pastor and Mina for encouraging me to keep reading this book. God answered my prayer, I have never felt so close to Him.
The Holy Spirit has shown me that all the stuff I bought and collected over the years wasn’t making me happy. I can think of no greater joy than to see where Jesus leads me, even if it is under a bridge. After all what wouldn’t we do for our “Fathers”? Earthly or Heavenly.
Being a radical Christian doesn’t sound scary anymore.
I thank God for letting me find that book when He knew I was ready to listen.